In many ways you aren't. But many others have not turned from God. The problem is that those who have are wielding a disproportionate amount of power in politics and popular culture. It's time to push back, assert our ( i believe) majority Judaeo- Christian views and speak in the cause of righteousness. We need to lead the narrative in the culture wars, not continually play catch up. And , God help us we need to be ready to fight for our rights and the truth both figuratively and if needs be -literally.
CC
PS your post sounds like defeatism. You are a child of the living God. You can do better than "nobody loves me, everybody hates me, i think i'll go eat worms"