I am finding some people here do not need to know exactly what I did; for that I am grateful. I am sorry you do not feel the same.
You definitely have my prayers.
I've been in some really, really low spots in life myself.
When my wife of twenty years, the mother of my children, divorced me, the whole world was nothing but blackness.
But that is the time when you just have to hit your knees and seek the Lord. There's no other solution. He's the Friend that is closer than any brother ever could be. He's promised to never leave you or forsake you.
And there's nothing you've done that is unforgivable with Him. He paid for it Personally, because of His great and eternal love for you.
Regards,
EV
If you doubt this, ask President Bush about driving infractions from 30 years ago.
A misdemeanor, while nothing to be proud of, is not the end of the world. You will do no more jail time. You probably will be fined and put on probation. Given the fact that you struggled to come up with $500 in a week, any fine imposed is going to be sufficient hardship in the eyes of the court.
Pay it in installments as the court permits and use this incident to re-evaluate who and what you are.
You're not stupid, Houmatt. You and I have had some differences in the past, but I'm offering this bit of advice as a fellow conservative. Use this unfortunate low point in your life as a wake up call, emotionally and spiritually. Ten years from now, you may look back and say that this is exactly what you needed to get your head back on your shoulders.
Just why did you post your request for help, if you can't yet face reality yourself?