So you must exist "mostly", outside the fold. Yet you seem to cherish the Amish part, too. Are you young and expect to rejoin later? Or are you cut off, permanently?
If I'm too curious, just say so.
Never been Amish officially.
After spending 38 years immersed in the world of high tech electronics in a land called Kalifornistan, I now prefer the outwardly simple life here on the ranch many miles from whence I came.