Posted on 04/16/2007 2:48:18 PM PDT by Jemian
Kayak has been a long-time freeper, appearing on many threads, but most especially America ~ the Right Way! She is a stanch conservative, a good friend, and most especially a dear sister in Christ. In December 2006, she was diagnosed with lung cancer which was soon found to be metastasized to the brain and throughout her body.
Her daughter, registered as Poppyseed, has been giving us updates when Kayak had to stop posting. This is the update posted most recently.
So much has happened since my last message to you all. My whole family came down this past weekend, and my brother came as well. The difference between Mama the weekend before and then this weekend was like night and day. By this past weekend, she had begun letting go, and was more or less staying in bed, much, much weaker and frailer than the weekend before, when she was weak but present.I stayed on after the weekend to be with Daddy and help out around the house, and to sit vigil by Mama. She was quiet, but sometimes responsive, and eating. This morning, though, her breathing changed, and she is in a near-comatose state and not really responsive at all. The Hospice nurse who came to see her this afternoon said that she is actively dying, and said that anytime in the next 24 hours, to the next two or three days, we can expect her to let go.
Yesterday, Daddy was hugging her, just loving on her the way he does, and she said, “You just won’t let me go, will you?” And he told her that absolutely he will let her go, and that anytime she’s ready to let go, she should.
I also told her that when she’s ready, she should go. I told her that we will take care of each other, and God will take care of us. “Are you ready to go?” I asked. “Go where?” she said. “Home,” I said. “Yes,” she said.
And after that business was taken care of, she began the process of letting go. She’s ready, and we’re as ready as we’ll ever be.
Please pray for her swift and peaceful passing into the next phase of life, and keep the rest of us in your prayers. We alternate - well, I alternate - between numb and inconsolable. It doesn’t even seem real right now. I’m sure it’ll hit me hard, harder, hardest later on.
She doesn’t seem to recognize us any more, so I won’t be passing on any messages to her. She seems to have heard all she needs to from those of us here in this world. She’s got her feet in two worlds, but she’s mostly elsewhere now.
I’m trying to keep myself busy, so I doubt I’ll be able to return individual responses to anyone anytime soon - apologies for that in advance. Thank you all for your love and your prayers. Take care, and I’ll let you know when she dies.
Love to all of you.
It was felt that y'all could post your tributes and thoughts to her here and perhaps it could be included in her memorial service when the time comes.
My prayers, hugs, and condolences to your and your family..
God be with you and your family in this difficult time. Prayers up!
The loving and heartfelt posts on this thread is a beautiful testament to how your mother touched people’s lives. She was a friend to all of us. She will be missed.
God rest her soul and God bless you and your family, poppyseed.
Prayer Request for Tony Snow
Posted by kayak to poobear; Tony Snow
On News/Activism 03/24/2007 7:40:37 AM CDT · 416 of 1,918
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poppyseed, I grieve with you in your loss. May God grant you His consolation and peace, and may He grant you His eternal Hope.
Cordially,
Well, it’s been a week since Mama died. It hasn’t gotten easier; it hasn’t even gotten more real. But we’ve settled into a new routine, one that doesn’t center entirely around her, at least not externally.
I suppose her funeral was beautiful, but I found no beauty in it. I confess that I found little comfort in the words of the minister. My comfort is only that she is no longer in pain, but that doesn’t ease my pain at losing my mama. I suppose that, like the rest of grief, will take time to work out.
I came here because of Mama. Many of you probably don’t know that I am not, ideologically speaking, a FReeper. I came here at a time when she couldn’t, to tell her friends what was happening to her. I worried that it would be an intrusion, both for her and for y’all, but she was glad and y’all seemed glad to have me here, speaking on her behalf. She loved you folks. And with good reason. We may not agree politically, but I didn’t come here for anything as crass as politics. What I came here for was for my mother’s friends, as a bridge. And I found here so much love and comfort, not just for Mama, but for my own self. Good people here, good reason Mama loved you all. Thank you for that.
It’s time I leave, though, I think, since Mama isn’t around any more. I’m not the least bit interested in politics these days, one way or the other. I am interested in keeping in touch with some of you, though, especially those of you who were especially close to Mama. I’ll check FReepmail the next couple of days, give any of you who are interested a way to get in touch with me off FR. And then, after the next few days, I’ll probably go back to MY homes on the Web, and off Mama’s turf.
I want to thank you all, again, for all your many prayers; for your comforting words for Mama and my whole family; for loving my mama, whom I still miss so much it physically aches. There are not enough words for my gratitude, nor for how much my mother loved you and how much you buoyed her up, for years. Thank you will have to suffice, though, since I lack the proper words. I think maybe the English language lacks the proper words for how much you’ve meant to my mother over the years, and to me and my family over the last few months.
If you could copy and paste this to ATRW, the Dose (I’m not even sure what that is), anywhere Mama’s FRiends might be, I’d appreciate it a great deal.
Much love and gratitude to you all.
Dear, sweet, poppyseed.
God bless you sweetie..and God and your Mom are very, very proud of you.
You have done a great job of keeping us informed..and even close to Kay during the last few months.
I know you are in a lot of pain...and I pray God relieves you of some of it soon...
Please, have a happy life..you know that is what your Mom wants for you. Where ever life takes you, just know that you, as well as your Mom were much loved here on Free Republic.
sleuth
We love you, poppyseed, and can’t thank you enough for coming over here to share your Mama with us...and YOU.
Thank you is JUST NOT ENOUGH, but it’s all I have.
Love always,
BG
I’ve pinged Logans Prayer Warriors one last time to this thread...
Thanks for checking in with us, poppyseed. Your Mother would be so very proud of the way you kept us all updated.
We all loved and respected your Mom, so much. Please tell her grandchildren how much she was loved by total (well almost total) strangers.
I know you’re hurting now, but with time the pain will ease, and you will have all those beautiful memories to hold on to.
And to you, as well, Poppy, for giving so much of yourself to both your mother and her Friends.
May God Bless you and Keep you, for all of your days, Amen.
Your mama was a wonderful person and we all loved her here...it seems Kay did a mighty fine job raising her children....God Bless you and your family.
So sweet of you .. just like your Momma. Whatever your next chapter, I’m sure she’ll be with you all the way, buoying you up. Your Mom is one special lady, wanting a special life for you and your family. God bless you all.
What a beautiful and honest post...thank you. I haven’t been on FR much lately and was so shocked to just find all this out. I wish you all God’s blessings...more peace will come in time,...lots of love to you all...
With sympathy and caring,
Daughter of Eve
Blessed be Your Name, both now and forevermore, Amen ...
Blessings to you dear. Enjoy your life. Your momma would want that.
Grammy
BTTT. Thank you Poppyseed.
Prayers up poppyseed. Go well and thanks.
I wish I could express to you how very sorry I am for your loss. It is our loss as well, as Kayak as we knew her was very special here. May God give you and your family comfort, and Please know we share your loss.
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