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Tony Snow’s Last Testimony
St. Maria Goretti Catholic Church Bulletin, Arlington TX | Unknown | Tony Snow

Posted on 08/04/2008 5:45:52 AM PDT by VRWCmember

Blessings arrive in unexpected packages, - in my case, cancer. Those of us with potentially fatal diseases - and there are millions in America today - find ourselves in the odd position of coping with our mortality while trying to fathom God's will. Although it would be the height of presumption to declare with confidence 'What It All Means,' Scripture provides powerful hints and consolations.

The first is that we shouldn't spend too much time trying to answer the 'why' questions: Why me? Why must people suffer? Why can't someone else get sick? Why can't I answer such things? The questions themselves often are designed more to express our anguish than to solicit an answer. I don't know why I have cancer, and I don't much care. It is what it is, a plain and indisputable fact. Yet even while staring into a mirror darkly, great and stunning truths began to take shape. Our maladies define a central feature of our existence: We are fallen. We are imperfect. Our bodies give out. But, despite this, - or because of it, - God offers the possibility of salvation and grace. We don't know how the narrative of our lives will end, but we get to choose how to use the interval between now and the moment we meet our Creator face-to-face.

Second, we need to get past the anxiety. The mere thought of dying can send adrenaline flooding through your system. A dizzy, unfocused panic seizes you. Your heart thumps; your head swims. You think of nothingness and swoon. You fear partings; you worry about the impact on family and friends. You fidget and get nowhere. To regain footing, remember that we were born not into death, but into life - and that the journey continues after we have finished our days on this earth. We accept this on faith, but that faith is nourished by a conviction that stirs even within many non-believing hearts - an intuition that the gift of life, once given, cannot be taken away. Those who have been stricken enjoy the special privilege of being able to fight with their might, main, and faith to live fully, richly, and exuberantly - no matter how their days may be numbered.

Third, we can open our eyes and hearts. God relishes surprise. We want lives of simple, predictable ease, - smooth, even trails as far as the eye can see, - but God likes to go off-road. He provokes us with twists and turns. He places us in predicaments that seem to defy our endurance and comprehension - and yet don't. By His love and grace, we persevere. The challenges that make our hearts leap and stomachs churn invariably strengthen our faith and grant measures of wisdom and joy we would not experience otherwise. 'You Have Been Called'. Picture yourself in a hospital bed. The fog of anesthesia has begun to wear away. A doctor stands at your feet a loved one holds your hand at the side. 'It's cancer,' the healer announces.

The natural reaction is to turn to God and ask Him to serve as a cosmic Santa. 'Dear God, make it all go away. Make everything simpler.' But another voice whispers: 'You have been called.' Your quandary has drawn you closer to God, closer to those you love, closer to the issues that matter, - and has dragged into insignificance the banal concerns that occupy our 'normal time.'

There is another kind of response, although usually short-lived, an inexplicable shudder of excitement as if a clarifying moment of calamity has swept away everything trivial and tiny, and placed before us the challenge of important questions. The moment you enter the 'Valley of the Shadow of Death', things change. You discover that Christianity is not something doughy, passive, pious, and soft. Faith may be the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. But it also draws you into a world shorn of fearful caution. The life of belief teems with thrills, boldness, danger, shocks, reversals, triumphs, and epiphanies.

Think of Paul, traipsing through the known world and contemplating trips to what must have seemed the antipodes (Spain), shaking the dust from his sandals, worrying not about the morrow, but only about the moment. There is nothing wilder than a life of humble virtue, - for it is through selflessness and service that God wrings from our bodies and spirits the most we ever could give, the most we ever could offer, and the most we ever could do. Finally, we can let love change everything. When Jesus was faced with the prospect of crucifixion, he grieved not for Himself, but for us. He cried for Jerusalem before entering the Holy City. From the Cross, He took on the cumulative burden of human sin and weakness, and begged for forgiveness on our behalf. We get repeated chances to learn that life is not about us, that we acquired purpose and satisfaction by sharing in God's love for others. Sickness gets us part way there. It reminds us of our limitations and dependence. But it also gives us a chance to serve the healthy.

A minister friend of mine observes that people suffering grave afflictions often acquire the faith of two people, while loved ones accept the burden of two peoples' worries and fears. 'Learning How to Live'. Most of us have watched friends as they drifted toward God's arms, not with resignation, but with peace and hope. In so doing, they have taught us not how to die, but how to live. They have emulated Christ by transmitting the power and authority of life.

I sat by my best friend's bedside a few years ago as a wasting cancer took him away. He kept at his table a worn Bible and a 1928 edition of the Book of Common Prayer. A shattering grief disabled his family, many of his old friends, and at least one priest. Here was a humble and very good guy, someone who apologized when he winced with pain because he thought it made his guest uncomfortable. He retained his equanimity and good humor literally until his last conscious moment. 'I'm going to try to beat [this cancer],' he told me several months before he died. 'But if I don't, I'll see you on the other side.' His gift was to remind everyone around him that even though God doesn't promise us tomorrow, he does promise us eternity - filled with life and love we cannot comprehend, - and that one can, in the throes of sickness, point the rest of us toward timeless truths that will help us weather future storms.

Through such trials, God bids us to choose: Do we believe, or do we not? Will we be bold enough to love, daring enough to serve, humble enough to submit, and strong enough to acknowledge our limitations? Can we surrender our concern in things that don't matter so that we might devote our remaining days to things that do? When our faith flags, God throws reminders in our way.

Think of the prayer warriors in our midst. They change things, and those of us who have been on the receiving end of their petitions and intercessions know it. It is hard to describe, but there are times when suddenly the hairs on the back of your neck stand up, and you feel a surge of the Spirit. Somehow you just know: Others have chosen, when talking to the Author of all creation, to lift us up, - to speak to Him of us! This is love of a very special order. But so is the ability to sit back and appreciate the wonder of every created thing. The mere thought of death somehow makes every blessing vivid, happiness more luminous and intense.

We may not know how our contest with sickness will end, but we have felt the loving touch of God. 'What is man that Thou are mindful of him?' We don't know much, but we do know this: No matter where we are, no matter what we do, no matter how bleak or frightening our prospects, each and every one of us who believes lies, each and every day, in the same safe and impregnable place: The hollow of God's hand!

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To: Kirkwood

See post 11.

21 posted on 08/04/2008 6:50:16 AM PDT by VRWCmember
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To: VRWCmember

WOW! Just beautiful. Tony, you are the man my brother.

22 posted on 08/04/2008 7:23:01 AM PDT by diverteach (
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To: VRWCmember

I also had to print to read later...didn’t get past the first paragraph.

23 posted on 08/04/2008 7:45:27 AM PDT by ladyvet ( afraid, be very afraid.)
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To: CondorFlight
Disease was an enemy, from the Enemy, and not sent by God.

Who created the Enemy?

24 posted on 08/04/2008 7:53:25 AM PDT by Poison Pill
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To: VRWCmember

This is beautiful, courageous, and true. I’ll read it again and again. Thanks for posting it.

25 posted on 08/04/2008 7:56:24 AM PDT by Mrs. Don-o (Jesus, my Lord, my God, my all.)
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To: CondorFlight
You're right, disease and death are our enemies and God's enemies, and does not represent His direct and active will. God did not create death, and it is the final enemy He will conquer.

However, I think the point is that He permits such things because He can use ALL things to accomplish the good, if we continue in faith and trust.

St. Julian of Norwich, who lived through the Black Death plague years in England (1348-50) believed that at the End of Time, Satan would be compelled to see and admit that, despite all of his efforts to drive us to despair, "All things" had indeed "worked together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose."

26 posted on 08/04/2008 8:06:55 AM PDT by Mrs. Don-o (Jesus, my Lord, my God, my all.)
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To: Poison Pill
James 1:13-15

When tempted, no one should say,
"God is tempting me."
For God cannot be tempted by evil,
nor does he tempt anyone;
but each one is tempted when,
by his own evil desire,
he is dragged away and enticed.
Then, after desire has conceived,
it gives birth to sin;
and sin,
when it is full-grown,
gives birth to death.

27 posted on 08/04/2008 8:13:43 AM PDT by Mrs. Don-o (Jesus, my Lord, my God, my all.)
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To: Mrs. Don-o

I didn’t ask about temptation.

28 posted on 08/04/2008 8:26:26 AM PDT by Poison Pill
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To: VRWCmember

I thought it so beautiful and inspiring that I wanted to send it on. So many times, though, lovely things like this are dubbed as “not true” at Snopes et al, so I decided to run it down to its source.

29 posted on 08/04/2008 8:28:27 AM PDT by chickadee
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To: VRWCmember

Thanks for posting this.

30 posted on 08/04/2008 9:32:32 AM PDT by NeoCaveman (El Conservo Tribal name "Avoids Fort Marcy Park")
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To: VRWCmember

What a wonderful, glowing testimony of what Christ can do in a submitted temple, one of His very own. So often we fight against the things that happen to us instead of surrendering them to Him and allowing Him to work in and through us to touch the world much in need of testimonies like Tony’s. May we all go out like Tony did, in the arms of Jesus who carried Him through it all.

31 posted on 08/04/2008 10:45:35 AM PDT by Marysecretary (.GOD IS STILL IN CONTROL)
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To: VRWCmember

Nor does he have to put up with the liberal press. Tony truly IS in heaven...

32 posted on 08/04/2008 10:46:39 AM PDT by Marysecretary (.GOD IS STILL IN CONTROL)
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To: Poison Pill

OK. That was context. Read the second verse of the quote. That’s where death came from: from sin, which is the main project of the Enemy. (His three main projects: Lies, Sin, Death.)

And as for the Enemy? He was not created an enemy. He was created brilliant and enlightened (lux, lucis). He became the Enemy by turning against the Source of all good.

33 posted on 08/04/2008 11:02:48 AM PDT by Mrs. Don-o (Jesus, my Lord, my God, my all.)
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To: VRWCmember
...God doesn't promise us tomorrow, he does promise us eternity...

That pretty much sums up how a true Christian faces he dying light.

34 posted on 08/04/2008 2:00:44 PM PDT by Mike Darancette (Obama, keep the change!)
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