No..it is not what I said.
If you have been lucky to have never questioned God about something that has happened in your life then I am truly happy for you.
I had an abusive evil mother who to be honest I was happy when told she was dead. I question God and have since I can remember about the horrific abuse I received.
I question what is happening now.
I love God and have read and studied the Bible. I have prayed that I work towards and that he gives me a more loving heart. Sometimes I am at peace, but other times like now, I am not.
I wish my head could be in the clouds and I could be that person who speaks as if they are better and holier than others. I am just a sinning Believer who prays.
I’m sorry if my not having the luxury of feeling full of goodwill right now bothers you.
I am speaking from the heart of someone who is hurt.
Being happy because one was raised sanely is not Christian. God has no grandchildren.
Being happy in spite of being raised insanely — because God gives you joy — IS Christian.