So sorry ro hear wha you are going through - the ‘not knowing whenit’s going to reappear...” - almost as hard as the rest.
Prayers that things will soon turn around for you -
Yes... I saw that in my friend, Roger. I only knew him 3 years... met him in a church golf group. But, he was one of those rare people that, after you've spent an hour with him? You feel like you've been best friends all your life.
After I told him about my Mom, he started telling me all the treatments he'd been given. He was among the first "clinical trial" patients that got marrow transplants at some clinic in Arkansas, more than 15 years ago. They were pretty successful.
When it came back this last time, he happened to already be sick... too sick to do the transplants again. It was touch and go for awhile. Then, not.
I probably shouldn't be telling you that story.. sorry. But, he was such a tremendous person. He was always proud knowing that the crap he was going through, would eventually help someone else in the future... as treatments get better. Some day, it might well be me.
God be with you in your struggles.