I am very sorry for your losses. I admit I've questioned everything about my faith more times than I care to count over the years due to loss of loved ones, observing the utter cruelty of mankind, of nature, of life itself.
Famines? Plagues? The Holocaust? Civil wars? Abortion? The neglect of a child? The cheating spouse? An elderly person lonely and sick in a nursing home? Yup, it all gives me serious doubts. Even the suffering of a rabbit our cat caught, played with, and left to die a long, slow death. I have no answers, only questions.
How can a merciful God allow so many to suffer so deeply for so long? Further, looking at the devotion of Muslims, of Christians, of Jews, of Hindus, etc., everyone completely believes they are a member of the one true faith. Yet, we hate one another (at least Muslims and Christians), we believe the other faiths are wrong or misguided, and we're back to square one.
Again, I have no answers, only questions, and I understand what you're going through. Who knows? Your feelings on your faith may change for the better again, and that's a small ray of hope for you...I hope.
It's difficult. It's very, very difficult. Even if I can forget about myself, I am frustrated.
There are simple questions I will NEVER know the answer to.
What will be the headlines on the newspapers 100 years from today?
Thanks for your kind reply.
Go back and hold the ones you love like I would hold my wife if I could.
God doesn't cause those awful things. But He is pretty plain on the subject of suffering. He promises that we will suffer. But if we ask for the grace to handle it, He will provide it.
It is my first prayer in the morning -- to ask for grace....and my last prayer at night is a thank you to Him for the grace He gave me....
Life is hard. Ain't no doubt about it. But I cannot imagine how hard it would be without faith.