There is just One authority on this subject. Ask Him.
I say I want to "see" Jesus, but if I really thought it out I'd be afraid. Very afraid of all the terrible sins and my hypocritical life that he can see as I stand before him.
I'd stand there unable to "hide" in the crowd of people, even though he can see me clearly. Just an imaginary camouflage of billions of souls. I think to myself...."maybe he can't see little ole me".
I couldn't even imagine what it would be like to be in the presence of "all goodness and hope".
The other thing is that I am still "of this Earth" in that I love my life, my house, my family, my work, all the "my, my, my's" that link me to this worldly life and distract me from him.
So there I am, as a so called "Christian" ...... hoping for salvation but still lacking in Faith that his salvation will put an end to my worries about earthly things.
Holy Week is hard, cause it shows me how far I need to go, and how little progress I've made in being a Christian.
He's already told us in Holy Scripture:
Now we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands. Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked. For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. Now it is God who has made us for this very purpose and has given us the Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.
Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord. We live by faith, not by sight. We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord. (II Cor.5;1-8)
St. Paul, inspired by the Holy Spirit, is very clear: When a Christian dies, he or she is present with the Lord.