Problem is your choice is to be a reductionist, materialist, follow scientism, or to have a religious worldview - whatever form that may take. Chances are you have one as well.
And if you think the Trinity is tortured thinking, try quantum physics.
I don’t believe that reductionist materialism is the only alternative to bizarre and unprovable mystical beliefs. You can go to Aristotle, Ayn Rand or a number of other good secular thinkers and find a different perspective.