Are you a baptized Catholic?
Why don’t you sit down with a priest and talk about your reasons for leaving for awhile.
The truth remains that you are still a Catholic.
My last dealing with a priest turned out to be a bad one. It involved an annulment and the Diocese of Hartford. I feel they betrayed and lied to me. There really is no way to resolve it.
I have no real animus toward the Church. I just don't believe much of what they say or preach.
I go to the Episcopal church and hear sermons that are relevant and I can understand. The sermons I used to hear in Catholic churches always left me cold.
I studied the Gospels in High School. It's not like I don't have an idea what they mean. I just never hear a Catholic priest explain the Gospel passage he just read in a way that connects.