It is a G-O-O-D thing in which to be “hooked” upon when it comes to your desire to be able to serve at a Traditional Mass. The Holy Ghost is moving you to be with HIM.
Heed that “inner movement / inner thirst” (”I Thirst” as Jesus spoke upon the cross) and follow your heart.
I know only too well that the head and heart are [can be] in battle with each other a lot of the time over things like this, so you have to turn within [to the soul] to find what may not just be illuminated to you right now by focusing on God, prayer, contemplation, and what I like to do [as a suggestion to you] and that is find a quiet place [maybe a favourite place / hideaway of yours] and meditate on the phrase “Be Still And Know That I AM” and really be still and know that He IS. And take comfort in that stillness that tends to be suppressed in our everyday world.
He knows you more so than anyone else in this world. More so than yourself. So you can take satisfaction in knowing that He knows what you are going to do, say, think, and so on before you even do. All of this is under the gift of Free Will that he has given us unconditionally. So yes, I do think that you are being moved in some form or fashion to serve at the Traditional Mass there at St. John Cantius.
Go with it. Bring hubby and the kiddies as well. Cajole, nudge, or even ambush them into going [the kids that is]. For example, off the top of my head here ... “Hey guys, lets all go downtown to Water Tower Place for a day of shopping” and then make a diversion over to St. John’s for MASS. O_o (Take pic of their faces when you do).
Granted, still go to Water Tower Place or wherever you were going to go to, but after Mass. They don’t have to receive Holy Communion (but that would be good), but just have them be in the “presence” of honouring God in this manner as opposed to the Novus Ordo Missae.
They can just sit in the pew and observe if they feel moved to do so. Just so that they get the exposure (and the benefit of the Grace of being present at Mass) to maybe plant a seed there in their hearts / minds / souls. You never know. St. Augustine’s mother prayed many years for her son to turn from his wayward lifestyle and look what happened, both of them are honoured as Saints in the Church.
As God has said “My thoughts are ABOVE your thoughts. My ways are ABOVE your ways.” Our teeny tiny human brains are no match for His.
Keep going. It is inspiring to me that you are doing so.
OK, I am turning my personal didactic switch off now as I am running low on personal battery power. ;-)
*flips switch now*
I’ll drop you a reply with regard to your FR private message when I get a chance here. Thanks for taking the time to type all of the instructions up.
p.s. I like the most recent pic that you posted here. :-)