I am absolutely dumbfounded by this statement. I have never actually heard anyone, saving possibly a sociopath, publicly admit to such a thing.
May I suggest that a bit of humility is in order. Believe it or not, unless you are the greatest of all saints, there are actually people on this planet who are closer to the Lord than you are, know Him better than you do, and have wisdom to impart. If you truly wish to draw near to Him, you would do well to acknowledge that, and learn about Him through wiser (and more humble) souls rather only through your private revelation. We are all capable of great self-deception—it is the prevailing weakness of all humans—and the input of others is priceless.