I have to say though, when I focus on how much I love God or if I am thinking of him enough, I get depressed and defeated because it's up and down all the time. BUT, when instead I focus on how much God loves me and is delighted to love and bless me unconditionally and consistently forever, I'm greatly refreshed and encouraged and I automatically love him back.
Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. Herein is [his love in us] made perfect, that we may have boldness in the Day of Judgment. 1 John 4:10, 16-17.
God Bless.
Thank you for putting words to my feelings this morning :)