I'm not sure you do. Some times it seems like it gets worse. You always feel like you are wide open, you can never relax and you get more and more emotional over things that remind you of it.
Yeah, sometimes I wonder why I think so much more about that stuff than I used to. The dreams aren't so darned bloody these days, though. Those ones that happened night after night have gone away quite a bit these days.
If I can't make fun about me and act like the tough guy I could never get a word out. Dunno, I am a pretty darn lucky guy. Amazing luck. Really.