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I'm childless at 42 and haunted by the baby I aborted at 18
dailymail.co.uk ^ | April 25, 2012 | KATE SPICER

Posted on 04/25/2012 9:37:08 PM PDT by grundle

Once, at a smart wedding in Northamptonshire when I was about 30, someone handed me a newborn baby and my skin broke out in hot hives.

In Brazil, I met a ten-year-old street kid. I fed him, let him sleep and shower in my hotel room, bought him clothes, and felt an overwhelming desire to protect and nurture him.

I had never before felt such a forceful maternal instinct. These events were profoundly physical reactions, both shocking to me.

Just around the time of my trip to Brazil, the ghost of my never-born came back to haunt me. I began imagining what he might have been like — a tall and sandy-haired boy, who would have been 17 at  the time. I was 35, the age when the  experts say your eggs and fertility start declining.

It’s embarrassing to reveal these visions of my never-born son, and important to understand their significance. This imagined son was not some moral spectre come to punish me; it was my subconscious reminding me to wake up and face reality.

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TOPICS: Culture/Society; Miscellaneous
KEYWORDS: abortion; cultureofdeath; feminism; moloch; moralabsolutes; narcissism; postabortivewomen; prolife; wreckageofleftism
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To: The_Media_never_lie

“Wow, there is a lot of hate on this thread.”

I agree.

What ever happened to Jesus’ teachings on Love being the most important commandment. To all those who proclaim to be Christians and spew hatred toward others, I remind them of this verse: (Yes, I too fall into the trap of hatred and need to reread this to pull myself out of the hole)

1John 4

God Is Love

20 If someone says, “I love God,” and hates his brother, he is a liar; for the one who does not love his brother whom he has seen, cannot love God whom he has not seen. 21 And this commandment we have from Him, that the one who loves God should love his brother also.


61 posted on 04/26/2012 3:51:33 AM PDT by tired&retired
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To: grundle

Me thinks she should see movie “October Baby”


62 posted on 04/26/2012 3:52:59 AM PDT by LittleMoe
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To: grundle

Ping


63 posted on 04/26/2012 3:54:40 AM PDT by broken_arrow1
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To: tcrlaf

Excellent post:

“This is real pain she is suffering. Cut her some slack. Without knowing it, she is worried about her soul.”

“Like or not, this is the same come-to-Jesus moment many people have had about abortion. Been there myself, unfortunately.

You have one opinion about it when you are 22 and scared.
You have another when you are 45, and wondering what kind of an adult that child would have grown in to.

In the end, this is what the liberal doctrine brings you. Misery and regret. But when you are young, you are only thinking about the NOW, not the future.”

But remember the parable of the vineyard workers. It doesn’t matter when you arrive, even at age 45 or later, the reward is still the same.


64 posted on 04/26/2012 3:55:54 AM PDT by tired&retired
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To: grundle

Hopefully this article is a step on a journey to repentance - she still has a long way to go!

Mel


65 posted on 04/26/2012 3:56:09 AM PDT by melsec (Once a Jolly Swagman camped by a Billabong....)
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To: Secret Agent Man

“Normal to be critical about people that murder their kids and afterwards complain about their childless life, still only thinking about how it impacts them.”

Every event of discomfort in another is an opportunity for us to point them in the direction of finding everlasting peace.

Eventually, if their pain becomes strong enough, the guard rails of life they keep running into will guide them on the right path.


66 posted on 04/26/2012 4:01:22 AM PDT by tired&retired
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To: tired&retired

I know it is a hard lesson for all of us. And it is the basis for the discussions in Galatians 5. But, in judging others, we are also judging ourselves. Remember what Jesus had to say about this.

John 3:17
For God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world might be saved through Him.

John 12:47
If anyone hears My sayings and does not keep them, I do not judge him; for I did not come to judge the world, but to save the world.

James 4:12
There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the One who is able to save and to destroy; but who are you who judge your neighbor?


67 posted on 04/26/2012 4:09:29 AM PDT by tired&retired
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To: Amberdawn

I worked in a home for the aged. Out of the 282 residents, about a handful had regular visits from their families.


68 posted on 04/26/2012 4:31:15 AM PDT by Alice in Wonderland
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To: Secret Agent Man; tired&retired; TigersEye
Normal to be critical about people that murder their kids and afterwards complain about their childless life, still only thinking about how it impacts them.

Yes, normal to be critical. But this woman gets only one life to live, and she has squandered it. Maybe she doesn't realize it yet, but her time has run out. I think it is a really sad situation.

Yes, she has murdered her own batch of cells, and yes, she is self centered and has a vast, deluded social system to make her feel just fine about what she has done, but reality will get only more painful as she ages.

To rub salt in the wounds seem to be sport for those who have made no serious mistakes in their lives.

69 posted on 04/26/2012 4:40:41 AM PDT by The_Media_never_lie
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To: volunbeer

[I am always dumbstruck that most threads that discuss abortion on this forum fail to mention the responsibility of the other half of the equation. The indoctrination by the left has been terribly effective and it goes far beyond the issue of abortion.]

That’s the basis of feminism...men aren’t needed and the the left has made sure that the impregnators have no legal right in the decision making process. There was a Sexual Revolution where women and children lost badly.


70 posted on 04/26/2012 4:41:55 AM PDT by bjorn14 (Woe to those who call good evil and evil good. Isaiah 5:20)
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To: RobbyS

Some souls are simply lost and they know it.


71 posted on 04/26/2012 4:42:58 AM PDT by muawiyah
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To: grundle

Am I supposed to feel badly for this murderer? She is still “all about poor me” and wants sympathy for not being able to have what she wants.


72 posted on 04/26/2012 4:44:43 AM PDT by freeangel ( (free speech is only good until someone else doesn't like it)
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To: tired&retired

Some imagine “Tough Love” to be “Hate” but they are wrong.


73 posted on 04/26/2012 4:45:18 AM PDT by muawiyah
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To: grundle

I found this woman to be a monster...she calls her baby a “bundle of cells” denying this young human life and then acting like she has maternal instincts?

Her so called maternal instincts were to kill her baby and then feel like it was a rite to passage as a woman...that is by definition a monster in my book.


74 posted on 04/26/2012 4:54:44 AM PDT by Wpin ("I Have Sworn Upon the Altar of God eternal hostility against every form of tyranny...")
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To: Right Brother

I’m hoping that “bundle of cells” is a just a snide, cynical reference to feminism’s view on pregnancy. You can read it two ways.


75 posted on 04/26/2012 4:55:32 AM PDT by ProtectOurFreedom
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To: grundle

The silver lining may be that some young women read this and decide not to kill their own babies.


76 posted on 04/26/2012 4:57:45 AM PDT by bjorn14 (Woe to those who call good evil and evil good. Isaiah 5:20)
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To: grundle
Today, I feel more emotional, guilty almost, about that bundle of cells I got rid of.

should I have let the foetus become a child?

Says it all.

77 posted on 04/26/2012 5:00:24 AM PDT by Graybeard58 (Romney vs. Obama? One of them has to lose, rejoice in that fact, whichever it is.)
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To: grundle

Sadly, this is a story that I hear over & over from women my age (40s) who aborted when they were in college, etc.

The psychological and emotional effects of this action are being seen right now, in this age.

When you are young, you don’t know of think about these effects.

I know women who cry every day over their decision(s) 25+ years ago.......


78 posted on 04/26/2012 5:28:36 AM PDT by SilvieWaldorfMD
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To: Secret Agent Man

She would be a mess to date.


79 posted on 04/26/2012 5:36:03 AM PDT by rawhide
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To: SilvieWaldorfMD

“I know women who cry every day over their decision(s) 25+ years ago......”

Same here. But they need to know that the burden can be lifted. Guide them to forgiveness. And always remember the important words Jesus said after He did His healing work..”Go and sin no more!”

You can’t imagine how the sparkle of the soul returns to their eyes as their soul becomes unshackled.

People forget the most important person they must forgive while saying the Lord’s Prayer. “Father, forgive us our sins as we forgive those who have sinned against us.” Don’t forget to forgive yourself and allow your soul to be vulnerable, a necessary step to becoming aware of God’s Love penetrating our soul.

People have no idea how self judgement shackles our souls. Recently, I was working with an elderly woman who was dying of throat cancer. I never met her personally, but was talking with her through her minister husband of over fifty years, while both were on the telephone. Although she could not talk and could only communicate with me by writing notes to her husband, I asked her husband to lay the phone down and not listen so I could communicate only with her. For some reason unknown to me, I can read people’s souls. I told her that her throat cancer was anchored in a memory in her soul of an event that happened when she was 17 yrs old and she never told anyone. She immediately started crying and wrote a note to her husband that she was molested by her piano teacher when she was 17 and never told anyone. Those trapped words and the self judgement attached to them, yes even as a victim, were creating a wound in her soul where Love could not exist. Merely allowing her self guilt to be released, set her free. Yes, she did die shortly thereafter, but had found a peace she had been searching for all her life.


80 posted on 04/26/2012 5:50:04 AM PDT by tired&retired
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