Look, I consider myself just a student of the Bible.
Our failure to OBEY God ...
IS the reason God has
allowed us to walk in our own path to destruction.
May I recommend an old set of study courses, that I
mostly agree with, not ALL, but MOST.
Again, I'm just a student of the Bible, and could be mistaken.
Don't get wrapped up in
who the writers are. Focus on the questions in the course, and the references given, and then go find the answers.
Then go to that source yourself, read it for yourself, and make up your own mind.
This is between you and God.
No one else should get between you and your relationship with God and his Son Jesus Christ, our Savior.
This is not a quick process, but several months of reading, prayer, and study.
For some sources, you'll have to research the Internet, or go to a public library.
But do it, and get started now. You enjoy it, after you get over learning that most of the world is trying to keep the truth from you.