What a beautiful post!
It really is envy of the disciples.
When I feel lost and need God, I pray to Jesus and say, “I so wish you could come to me as you did when you had your ministry on earth. It would be so helpful to have you personally guide me, looking into my eyes, patting my hand and hear you say, “I came to see you, to offer you my love and encouragement.”
I KNOW God does love me and is there for me.
But, I still wish that I could have been one of those to see Him with my own eyes.