You do not have to deal with this problem. You do not have to feel this way. There is help, I promise. Remember that this is just a passing feeling that you won’t consider tomorrow or in a few days. Don’t let your mind go there and accept suicide as an option. There are too many other choices available that will help and heal you. My brother took his life 5 years ago because he thought there was no meaning,hope or happiness. But there was and I wish I knew then what I know now because I maybe could have helped him, but I will reach out to you instead. What our family has had to endure is a hell that I would wish on no one. Least of all my children. Because of his traumatic and senseless death I now have a severe panic disorder now that is somewhat treatable with medication. I couldn’t imagine how I would feel if it had been my dad. She will feel that you didn’t love her. She will think that she did something to cause your suicide. She will wonder what she could have done to help you so you would have lived. These feelings will NEVER leave her. She will mourn everyday of her life not only for your absence but also for the way it came about. SHE will live with YOUR decision for the rest of her life. A life that will be jaded and full of depression and regret. Please talk to someone. You may not like the idea but it doesn’t have to be this way. You CAN get better. I will tell you what has gotten me through the darkest of my days when I have felt like you do, surrender all of your worries and problems to the Lord and he will take that burden. Completely and utterly surrender and put it all in God’s hands and he WILL help you. I will pray for your healing and for you to have strength to deal with this. You WILL be okay. You WILL be happy again. Many hugs and prayers for you.