Kicks like a mule!! Can’t hit the side of a barn!! If those were the case, why do so many people like it?
After a 1911, shooting a 9mm feels like a cap gun to Me. I’d still rather not be Shot with either of them.
And the 1911 just FEELS RIGHT.
“Kicks like a mule etc”
You need more practice. The last shoot I went to I hit 8 our of 10 head shots in 10 seconds at 25 yards. that time includes changing a mag out.
Sounds like you are scared to pull the trigger. Find a good balanced weapon and practice, practice, practice.