In my opinion, playing with brain chemistry is not something to venture in lightly. We only have one.
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Your feelings are understandable and basically true.
May I suggest that your resorting to the use of the word "playing" ..... is playing by you.
And secondly I started using LSD at times after graduating from college/Economics in '68, then coming back from my Army Security Agency work in the Army, and thirdly reading extensively from medical journals and other publications on the study and use of LSD.
I also studied the behavior of friends who were already using it.
Only after all of that did I decide to try it. It was very beautiful and tremendously meaningful.
Take this for what it's worth.
PS -- All my life of 72 years, I have loved to watch snow fall ..... meander down on a still, chilly night under a street light.
Luckily, the first time was a night like that. These very big beautiful snowflakes fell for hours through the street lights of Oakland, Pittsburgh, PA. The colors in those flakes were fabulous.
Those colors are always there. Some folks just never get to see them.