Ok...I feel your stress brother....
So my first question to you is:
Did you mean your vows?
2nd is....do you love her?
If the answers to 1&2 are yes...then it is your duty to figure out how to help her....
I know the stress of trying to save a marraige and holding a family together...I put 4 years into trying to save my marraige after my wife went through a crisis and cheated after 25 yrs...
What I found out was.....you cant save someone else if they dont want to be saved....
I know it feels terrible to think you havent done enough...or the right thing.....you have taken on a role as provider,protector, and care giver....it’s what any man worth his salt will do as a husband....
If she is ok on her meds...then you have to help keep her on her meds....
If she refuses to do so...and she gets worse...that isnt on you...it’s on her...
You need to catch her in a lucid moment..stress free..and simply talk about your feelings...
If you cant handle taking care of her....bow out...but you have to know that without you...she might go off the deep end.
That is a choice you have to make for yourself....how much are you willing to put with out of love, duty, and responsibilty.
If you are done...you are done....and you have to make that break guilt free or it will will tear you up for years.
I guess my point is....what are you willing to live it and if it that bad...how much are you willing to sacrifice to keep taking care of her?
I miss my wife dearly...and I know she is screwing up her life....but I cant control that....I can only deal with it...I had to let her go....it hurts but I am better for it.
How much are you willing to deal with is the question.
A undeniable truth many can't seem to understand.
....it’s what any man worth his salt will do as a husband....
My mom had a stroke last year. My dad (age 84) never left the hospital for more than an hour and that was just to run home and shower. He slept on a little couch in her room that was nowhere near big enough for him. He lost ten pounds in the week she was in ICU. Since then he will not leave her side unless someone is there with her. He’s been an awesome example!