Actually, it made me even sadder ;(
But I loved the part about being in the present.
{ “I carried so much guilt and shame. I started engaging in the “What If” game.}
I’ve been doing that! Plus been feeling guilty about all the times I Didn’t play with her, do things for her, when I was taking the time for other things, wheh just 5 mintues of playing with a string would’ve meant so much to her!
So, if I’ve learned anything - it is to be in the moment with the others. Give them my time and attention, in between all the things I need to do. With 4 cats and a dog, it’s hard but I will do better!
I am so sorry.
We have more than a few little ash boxes around here.
If you got anything out of it, then you have learned something important. However, guilt is pointless. It is beating yourself up for no gain. Your Cashmere would not want you to be sad. Your Cashmere will be waiting for you and wants you to be happy until then.
Oh, and if you MUST guilt yourself, please offset that with the fact you gave her an amazing life filled with love. Not all animals are so lucky, there are 4 ferals in my complex that would have killed to be her.