But as I said, you are entitled to such misery.
You acknowledge an agnostic out look when it comes to figuring out the differences between religion and superstition, there-fore you have lost hope in ever knowing the God who loves you or understanding of anything that is true. Therefore I think you need to question how you can judge anyone’s level of ignorance having no grasp of ultimate truth your self.
By the way, I have seen many wives die and husbands and have cared for dying children. Each still leaves in me a mark when I am there at the last moments. As an RN for 25 years and still active I have yet to lose hope in a Living God as you seem to have. I am not God, that was never to be man’s responsibility. Indeed my religious viewpoint shows me my own ignorance. Happily there is one cure for it, I go to Wisdom as described in Ecclesiastes, and dwell amongst her 7 pillars!
Ecclesiastes chapters 1-3.
Proverbs chapter 9.
You proclaim me ignorant, look at those passages in the context of this conversation and proclaim me ignorant again.
As for paranoia, a wasted emotion for one end awaits us all; only one event awaits afterward...judgment!