You should expect years from now people will be saying the same about you and your beliefs - since you believe they ultimately come from mindlessness. In fact, you should expect to be wrong about most everything due to there being no reason for truth according to your belief.
and what support is there for your beliefs beyond bronze age mythology? You seem to be unable to imaging anything more advanced that the mind. I can easily imagine a creative force lacking consciousness, will or purpose.
Why are any of those three necessary for your vision of a creative force? Gravity has none of those. Electromagnetism has none of those. They have formed galaxies.
You burden yourself with lots of unexamined premises, it seems to me.