Really, there are people that care about you, even here. For your own sake and for your soul, just stop using drugs. Legally and morally, you know it's the right thing. Can't you stop?
Sure I can stop...I go w/o marijuana quite a lot. Marijuana isn't physically addictive & it doesn't bother me one iota when I don't have it, & that's one thing I love about it. I don't drink 'cuz I HATE the taste of alcohol & it makes folks turn violent, & that isn't my style.
Now for tobacco, that's a totally different matter--it took me 5 MONTHS (using a nicotine patch) of going thru pure hell b4 I began to feel confident that I had kicked the habit. It messed up my sleeping pattern severely, I had the shakes, stomach cramps, loss of appetite, severe headaches....it was terrible! It's been a lil over 2 yrs since I've had a cigarette, & even now I could go back on them 'cuz I miss it (I still feel like one of my best friends had moved away or died).