Let's see... you start off by calling me a "darwinist" as if there is some sort of religion involved, then you immediately ascribe several other quasi-religious beliefs to me. And you don't even know me!
In my experience, most people who hold nutty quasi-religious beliefs are way too whacked out to even consider studying science.
Beyond that, I really can't comment on your post. While I appreciate that some amount of effort went into it, there isn't much I can say when the entire text is derived from a false premise.
The terms "Physicalist", "Naturalist", and "Darwinist", and "Atheism" are not generally considered orthodox theistic terms, although in a debate between the atheist and the theist often use these terms to communicate. I asked, INITIALLY, if other, please explain. Your protestations seem to indicate your refusal to claim your worldview as atheistic, darwinist, naturalist, or physicalist as descriptive of what you do believe as a view of the world.
Your assertion of me being "way to wacked out" study science. You may be right. I do not hold a PhD in any of the natural sciences. What I do hold is a BS in Biology and Chemistry, MS in Biology, with my dissertation "Identification of Pleistocene Fossils from McFaddin Beach, High Island Texas. I hold a doctorate in medicine and did 5 years postdoc in General and Trauma Surgery. I even participated in double blind studies for what used to be Smith-Kline-French Pharmaceutical Corp. studying H2 receptor antagonists in the development of anti ulcer and reflux esophagitis treatment.
That said, you may still assert me being unqualified to study science...that remains to be seen.
I was simply trying to assertain how you reconsile invarient, abstract entities, such as consciousness, numbers, logic, rational thought, reason, love, hate, beauty, etc. to a worldview of the physicalist (if you are not a phyicialist, or one who believes Darwins theory is sufficient to explain it all (darwinist), or an atheist)).
You are correct...I do not know you, but you seem bright. I am just talking to you...hopefully without invective.