I am a Christian, since I was 10 years old. The problem with churches, is, they are made up of people. Churches always wanted me to do stuff within their organization and I would see the bickering, backstabbing, clicks that didn't like other clicks, etc.. and I wanted peace so I don't go anymore.
I am a dedicated member of Christ's church not on earth. I have studied the Bible all my life. My church when I was growing up thought for sure I would be a minister's wife one day. I was the church pianist for many years. Anyway, now I have church by myself and Jesus Christ in my house.
I was a psychological examiner for over 20 years and I only tested two children that I knew were autistic - that is before they re-defined autism and made it a catch all category. I would not want to test children or adults now as I couldn't go along with what has been done by changing the DSM symptoms for numerous disorders.
“Churches always wanted me to do stuff within their organization and I would see the bickering, backstabbing, clicks that didn’t like other clicks, etc.. and I wanted peace so I don’t go anymore. I am a dedicated member of Christ’s church not on earth. ... Anyway, now I have church by myself and Jesus Christ in my house.”
You aren’t alone! Many believers have taken refuge from the church culture to find fellowship in homes and coffee shops.
You would enjoy reading the following books:
George Barna, Revolution
http://www.amazon.com/Revolution-George-Barna/dp/1414307586
“Barna examines the state of the church today—and compares it to the biblical picture of the church as God intended it to be. He documents how and why a new brand of devout “Revolutionaries” is abandoning the local church building while attempting to become the church that Christ commissioned us to be.”
Frank Viola, Reimagining Church: Pursuing the Dream of Organic Christianity
http://www.amazon.com/Reimagining-Church-Pursuing-Organic-Christianity/dp/1434768759/
“Viola, a leader in the house church movement, believes the church as we know it today is nothing like what God intended it to be. According to Viola, the first-century church, which should be our pattern, met in homes without any official pastor.”
Have you considered finding some fellow refugees and being Church together? There is a growing movement of people doing just that.