I don't pretend a damn thing and I'm sure as hell not as confused as you. I believe what I believe and I use a dictionary term to describe what I believe. Libertarianism as a term long predates any political party by that name. The Libertarian Party didn't invent the term. Again, from dictionary.com:lib·er·tar·i·an [lib-er-tair-ee-uh n] noun 1. a person who advocates liberty, especially with regard to thought or conduct. 2. a person who maintains the doctrine of free will ( distinguished from necessitarian ). adjective 3. advocating liberty or conforming to principles of liberty. 4. maintaining the doctrine of free will. Origin: 1780–90; libert(y) + -arian
Yet you support the radical leftism of libertarianism and it’s positions on abortion and the homosexual agenda, open borders, and so on when you promote their agenda and proclaim yourself as one.
If you don’t, then you aren’t libertarian, you cannot pull that libertarian scam of always matching which ever audience you are talking to, a left one, or a right one.