you sound so beaten down brother. i pray that the Spirit of God lift you, quicken you. but lest you take all hope from some here, let us hear directly from the Word of God:
Romans 8:11 But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you.
Romans 8:11 But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you,
he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit
that dwelleth in you.
Rom 8:12 Therefore, brethren, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live after the flesh.
Rom 8:13 For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify
the deeds of the body, ye shall live.
The interpretation of the meaning of verse 11 must be placed into its context, which is about the body being resurrected from the dead when Jesus comes to rule:
1 Cor. 15:22 For as in Adam all die, even so in Christ shall all be made alive.
For the "quickening" of Romans 8:11 to take place, the person must literally die. This verse is not about healing, it is about being raised from the dead literally, with a figurative meaning of attaining life in the Spirit through figuratively killing the proclivity to employ the literal body in sinful acts.
The proposed outcome of verse 11 is a speculation based on your gross misinterpretation of its meaning.
No Im free in Christ. No legalism.