Posted on 03/10/2005 8:52:19 AM PST by meanie monster
I had 3 children, the youngest at the time was 16 months. I accidentally became pregnant. We were living in a small 2 bedroom trailor. It was a nice mobile home but where was I going to put a new baby!
I was so sad about it. I put the abortion off to the the last 2 days and I became a drinker to end the pain. A cold 6 packy a day!
Well I am sober now for one week. I have had severe anxiety attacks since last june. I have no insurance. My hubby is self employed and getting insured is impossible.
Yesterday I bought a health plan from United American Health Care. For $139.00 A month it covers all 5 members in our house hold. We pay half the doctor visits etc and get reimbursed the rest.
Pray for me I don't want to drink any more. I have been buying meds form international pharmacies and it is very expensive. Probably illegal too.
Not a day goes by that I think about my baby I threw in the trash. I hate myself and I hope God forgives me. Cause I can't forgive myself.
God forgives you. We are all sinners.
Please call AA now. I'm not sure who else you should call, but someone will have a suggestion.
God forgives and heals. Prayers for your recovery.
Call this toll-free national hotline number:
877 HOPE 4 ME (877 467 3463)
It's Rachel's Vineyard, and they will help you recover from this tragedy.
God bless you and your baby.
http://www.afterabortion.info/healing/
Great spiritual and emotional support for post abortion
I wish I could believe your story, but I don't.
Meanie,
Prayers sent. For you and your family. I to know the pain you feel. When I was 17 I accidentally got my girlfriend pregnant. And it was decided that the baby needed to be terminated. I paid for it. And I to deeply regetted and will for the rest of my life. But, Jesus forgives, and I know my child is in his grace. Take heart and I will continue to pray for you and yours.
When King David's child died, David spoke of being reunited with him in the future.
You made a mistake, but don't underestimate the power of God to set the mistake right. Your child is in heaven being cared for by angels.
You have three other children that you are still responsible for that are wonderful gifts from the Lord. Take care of them and serve Him well and let Him worry about the one that you can no longer do anything about.
My wife is a social worker and she recently sheparded a group of women who were seeking to heal the wound left from their abortions years earlier. It was a matter of them forgiving themselves.
I will pray for you.
Your repentance and desire for forgiveness are exactly the right first steps. "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness." (1 John 1:9 NIV)
JMO, but I think next you need the loving fellowship of a Christian support group and/or church family. May I encourage you to seek one.
I ain't buying it either. Sounds like a troll, but she's been here since 2003.?
http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-news/1238183/posts?page=407#407
I was the victim of a forced abortion at 15 (30 years ago), and even though it was not my decision, I understand the pain and guilt you are feeling. I let the anger eat at me for years and it was ruining my life. The best thing you can do is turn it over to the Lord. I did, and miraculously, my mother came to me begging for forgiveness a few years ago and the healing has begun for all. Go to Him in prayer and repent. I will pray for you that you may find peace.
No, was living in a trailer four years ago.
She says "we were living".
I don't know what to believe but I know the post sounds disjointed!
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