God you need a family to concentrate on. No wonder you are so bitter and have such a negative and unproductive hobby. Just one person to love you would help you feel better about yourself, and then you will soon look around and start asking yourself how you can help others. You might even challenge yourself to add some sunshine into someone elses life so you are not so caught up in your own misery. Try some single ads or online dating services.
Whatever bad assumptions you've just made about me obviously applies to your own lack of intimacy, faith-wise, with the God of the Bible. (Otherwise, you wouldn't be treating His Personal Body like an impersonal chair, now would you?)
What does Jesus think of the "lukewarm?" (Not my originated opinion -- but certainly His): 15I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! 16So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth. (Revelation 3:15-16)