Really? Just becasue you found out you were adopted in an unusual/illegal manner doesn't mean you suddenly don't know who you "really are". Learning this information was no doubt startling and even shocking, but it does not negate the 46 years you have lived so far. The life you have lived, the things you have learned, the things you have done, the people you have met who affected you and who you affected: THAT defines who you "really are".
I ‘think’ that this ‘cause celebre’ that all adopted children need to return to their ‘roots’ to be made whole is a bunch of HOLLYWOOD CRAP.
Every case is different, but most of the time, the ‘feeling’ that you MUST go back and find the parents who gave you up, seems to be very unproductive, in the long run.
I am not adopted, so my opinion is really irrelevant, but I said it anyway.