Thank you for clarifying.
I found that the person in my life wasn’t worth the anger.
I tried to understand the “whys”, but I really don’t and probably never will. I chalk it up to something in their background and makeup, not mine, and let it go. I love them as a person, I respect and honor them for bringing me into the world, but that’s where it has to end. I harbor no thoughts about a reconciliation or a relationship in the future.
I can’t say that I have a lot of emotion one way or the other, except sorrow that it is the way it is, and regret that it couldn’t be better somehow. I do think that I did my very best and tried my hardest, which helps.
We’re asked to forgive and honor, and that is what I try to do. I can’t take the next step, though, and engage in a relationship. I’m not sure that we’re called to, first of all. And secondly, she is a destructive force in my life if she’s involved. I have a husband and the family we’ve created, and I have obligations to them first and foremost.
I believe that we can forgive but not forget. We need to respect ourselves enough to stay safe and sane for our own sakes and for our families.
I hope you find a way to forgive on your terms. I will keep you in my prayers.
Thanks. Cutting the person out is best and with your family, you can in some ways redo certain aspects of your life and I am sure that your loving family more than makes up for it. Cutting them out and being indifferent is best.