Perhaps you should try out different types of firearms at a shooting range.
Never have been to a firing range - they have different types of arms to try?
If you can handle it, get a 12 ga...Mossburg or Remington. Does not have to be expensive. 00 and slugs for ammo.
Otherwise, get a 20 ga...
Then get a hand gun...
9 mm, 40 or 45 acp...If you want one to carry, consider a Springfield XDs...45 acp in a small, concealable package...packs a punch, ok for the ladies...