It was not in myself it came from outside me. I could not have imagined it as I have never felt anything remotely like it. A less likely man to receive such a Gift neither I nor you will ever meet. I am still trying to figure out why me. What does he want me to do? I think it will come to me in His time.
I don’t think your experience is so unique, which is to say while we are all different. CS Lewis’s wife Joy Davidman wrote of an experience where as she busied herself with the pressing duties of the day, she was increasingly bothered by an nagging sense of agitation and annoyance. Finally, she called out...”What is it Lord?” The thing that had been annoying her seemed to state” I just wanted to give you something!” and suddenly she entered into joy!
God bless you in your relationship with him!
Yes...take a look at this jew turned to Jesus....may help
Funny you mention waves. I had an experience once that I will never forget.
I had been having heart palpitations and they scared me to death. Ultimately the cause was found out to be self-drowning in coffee, lol, but I didn’t know that, and I was very apprehensive leading up to my doctor’s appointment (couple that with the fact that I always get nervous at the doctor’s). Well, I sat down in a quiet room and prayed, and I asked the Lord to please take the anxiety from me. The words were not completely out of my mouth before a big, soft, warm wave, like a tsunami, of perfectly sweet peace just washed over me. It made me weep because I knew God was right there with me. That feeling of complete serenity stayed with me all day, through the doctor’s appointment. It was like being wrapped in a cushioning cocoon of peace.