Fear of losing control, but Colossians 1:24 gives us the key to the mystery of suffering, up that which is behind of the afflictions of Christ in my flesh for his body’s sake”. We do our most powerful work of all at the end of our lives, offering our sufferings to Christ Who, true, doesn’t need them, but like a Dad letting his little son give unnecessary help, His plan is to include us in the glory of His cross.
My mother just died at 92 and she fought for every minute of life, persevered over doctors and nurses who offered her an easy exit for the past 2.5 years, gave and received many moments of joy in her final years months and days.
Her epitaph:
“I have fought the good fight
I have finished the race
I have kept the Faith”
2 Timothy 4:7