Yeah- so true
With your indulgence— may I tell you, your comment brought to mind a song from Nine Inch Nails-— “The Hurt”
One of the last recordings of this was Johnny Cash. While the topic is heroin, and the “empire of dirt” and death, that the individual forces on all around them— it is really about a death wish (like what people who are addicted to the suppression of fear, or feeling of uber-strength,imho). The ego of thinking one is capable of beating.. Nature, and God.
Cash’s version is simply haunting, dang powerful song.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ahHWROn8M0
“I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel”
“I focus on the pain, the only thing that’s real”
“The needle tears a hole the old familiar sting”
“Try to kill it all away, but I remember everything”
What have I become? My sweetest friend. Everyone I know goes
away in the End.
Nihilism. And the almighty Self. Self anointed self- with a Crown of Thorns (self installed).
That’s a great version. I heard where Nine Inch Nails said something like “It’s Johnny’s song now, he did it so much better than us.”