You have a good insight into the psyches of homosexuals and their culture. Few do. They just believe the carefully constructed facade designed to present a happy face to everyone through the media narrative.
I’ve known a few homosexuals well enough to make an informed assessment, too, and they are almost all, without exception, on life-long psychotropic meds to control chronic debilitating depression or raging anger, directed at blood relatives or partners, or no one in general. They all admit to having extensive Homo porn collections, some proudly so.