I never did get to hear your justification for right and wrong, since you don't have one, I can't blame you for remaining mum.
Now, when you get enough courage to make that doctor's appointment, don't go for the discount, you need the best mental help you can find.
After you get back on your feet, take up some things that normal, healthy men do and don't look back.
Goodbye Alice:)
Priceless.