"Use the brain God gave you, not using it would be a sin."
I used the brain God gave me to arrive at the belief that He exists. I thought like you do now when I was 14. Your big, tough unrelenting questions ARE YOUR DEFENSE AGAINST EVER BELIEVING.
The nature of God is unknowable. There MUST ALWAYS be more questions than answers Anyone who doesn't want to be bothered by God can simply ask questions and wait for someone to answer them.
Use your brain to LOOK for Him. It stands to reason that if He exists he COULD NOT leave you, in life, incapable of finding Him.
No, my big tough unrelenting questions are exposing this as a fable because you can't answer them. You can't go saying that this event happened as a historical event on one hand, and then retreat into it being a metaphysical event when challenged. You can't have it both ways.
But, maybe if you try typing in all caps, I'll change my mind.
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