Confession is good for the soul. Coming to grips with who one is and what one has done can be very painful, for those whose conscience has not been seared beyond recognition. I know from experience. Here is the experience of another poster, recently shared, that may be of some help to you. .
The particulars of your story, and the effects of the deed on all involved, including the father, sadly conform to one lady said about it some time ago:
"America needs no words from me to see how your decision in Roe v. Wade has deformed a great nation. The so-called right to abortion has pitted mothers against their children and women against men. It has sown violence and discord at the heart of the most intimate human relationships. It has aggravated the derogation of the father's role in an increasingly fatherless society. It has portrayed the greatest of gifts -- a child -- as a competitor, an intrusion, and an inconvenience. It has nominally accorded mothers unfettered dominion over the independent lives of their physically dependent sons and daughters"
And, in granting this unconscionable power, it has exposed many women to unjust and selfish demands from their husbands or other sexual partners. Human rights are not a privilege conferred by government. They are every human being's entitlement by virtue of his humanity. The right to life does not depend, and must not be declared to be contingent, on the pleasure of anyone else, not even a parent or a sovereign." (Mother Theresa -- "Notable and Quotable," Wall Street Journal, 2/25/94, p. A14)
"But I feel that the greatest destroyer of peace today is abortion, because it is a war against the child - a direct killing of the innocent child - murder by the mother herself. And if we accept that a mother can kill even her own child, how can we tell other people not to kill one another? How do we persuade a woman not to have an abortion? As always, we must persuade her with love, and we remind ourselves that love means to be willing to give until it hurts. Jesus gave even his life to love us. So the mother who is thinking of abortion, should be helped to love - that is, to give until it hurts her plans, or her free time, to respect the life of her child. The father of that child, whoever he is, must also give until it hurts. By abortion, the mother does not learn to love, but kills even her own child to solve her problems. And by abortion, the father is told that he does not have to take any responsibility at all for the child he has brought into the world. That father is likely to put other women into the same trouble. So abortion just leads to more abortion. Any country that accepts abortion is not teaching the people to love, but to use any violence to get what they want. That is why the greatest destroyer of love and peace is abortion. "
Mother Theresa
Cordially,
I've said in a couple of Freepmails but let me state right out loud right here....there is NOTHING more demeaning to a woman than to be carted around like so much garbage, manipulated and cajoled and pressured, into killing an unborn baby.
I wanted to be loved and cherished. I wanted this man who I did love once upon a time, on some level, to hold me and promise to take care of me.
Paying the deductible on the health insurance and making all the arrangements, even that night spent with me out of so-called loving "concern", hey, it was a degrading experience I shall never forget.
These NAGS need to sit down and shut up. All they've done is promote the further sexual objectification of women, something that had been their mantra and rallying cry for so many years.
For how much of a sex object is a female when her body is used for male pleasure but discarded, stapled and folded when that same body does what it was designed to do: to bring forth life?
They make me so damn sick. Hey, if MS and Gloria would just keep their stupid mouths shut I might not be so mad. But to want women to stand up tall and say they are PROUD, PROUD I tell you, to have been so used by a male in their life that they loved enough to be initimate with....hey, I gotta shut up now I get so mad.
The utter arrogance of it makes me want to spit.