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Anyone with a middle school education should have been able to understand what I wrote. Which probably disqualifies you. If I sound “screwed up” and “confused,” maybe you should go to your local community college and take a refresher course on reading. Don’t worry, I’ll help you with the application if it happens to contain words that have more than three syllables.