Thanks. I have decided it was a mistake to share such intimate insights.
After re-reading both your post and my reply, I realize I came across as very cold, and I apologize for my rudeness.
I just want you to remember that God never gives us a challenge He expects us to fail. He wants us to prevail over adversity, and it looks like you are doing so quite well, even though it seems so hard.
God bless us all, and keep the faith!