“Previous screen name?”
Apparently you don’t know what lurking on the web means.
Actually the forum I was on before here was the Ted Nugent Talkback forum.
That one met my needs until Nugent charged a membership and all the good posters left an I git board.
I came here mostly for article links and had no need to reply.
But you know it all anyway.
You should seek help, you need it.