[Darkwolf377]

Thank you all for the serious responses, they’re much appreciated. I didn’t want anyone to think I was being a wiseguy, and I will read through all of these posts.

Belief aside, the Bible and theology are fascinating subjects. Thanks again.

[Lauren BaRecall]

The bottom line is that Faith is a gift of grace from God. If you were to ask Him for it perseveringly, even without being sure of His existence, He will not disappoint you. I'm sure of it.

Your asking questions as you did, is you responding to the grace He's already giving you. He's extending his hand. He wants you to know Him, and live as His son. I can see that very clearly, even if you can't right now.

I'll keep you in my prayers.

[AnAmericanMother]

You're very welcome! It is fascinating, isn't it?

I would recommend two books for you to read -- both really address your questions but in different ways. One is fiction, one apologetics. Both are by C.S. Lewis: The Great Divorce and Mere Christianity. I think the former may be my very favorite Lewis book (and I've read them all).