But as his deployment neared, he started to “really ask myself whether God would accept what I was doing and whether I was really meant to go to war, as opposed to the peace that Islam preaches.”
And yet he was going to kill.
We must never take our eyes off the moslems.
It’s not IF they’re up to something, it’s WHAT EXACTLY is each one up to.
“And yet he was going to kill.”
He was going to kill INFIDELS, that is the key part that explains why his thinking was not conflicted. The “the peace that Islam preaches” is for muslims only, there is no peace for the infidels until they are all subdued.