I'm soooooo glad I stopped doing Acid in the 70's. I highly recommend your at least cutting back.
This deserves your attention.
That's the whole theory behind Quantum. Noting exist until it's observed.
One photon can be split into two, and the two "communicate." One does the exact same thing as the other. Newtonian physics can't explain that, but Quantum physics can. If conciseness isn't there to witness the photon, is it really a mass, or is it a blur of "holographic" quantum, or super strings? How can a photon do things that science today cannot explain, unless there's something holding the two together across distances? How could they communicate without the strings that spread out and intertwine between the atoms? How could they communicate unless those strings are connected to the photons, or ARE the photons?