I suffer from BP1 and PTSD. It is very easy to stand on the sideline and call people who commit suicide selfish. However when you suffer it isnt a normal sadness that goes away or something that pills or therapy or a visit to the church can easily fix. It takes you over, over rides any normal process, your mind can run through a thousand thoughts in a second or get stuck on one thought so bad that it takes your life.
I’m sorry to read of your suffering. I can’t offer any comfort, but do hope the time comes that you will find peace permanently in this life.
I will never understand the pain you confront. I will remember when I pray for my daughter to include ALL of God’s children who face similar challenges. Be well FRiend.
Thank you for your service FRiend,
with prayers for strength, lifting on your behalf.