I'll respond like I did with my children when they were young.
What were you trying to do, Brian?
(In his own words) " ..... What happened is clearly part of my ego getting the better of me. To put myself in a better light, to appear better than I was, that’s the process here,” Williams said
To BW, he can justify his action, as "going through a process". Too nuanced for the likes of you and me.